I’m not too good at the romantic stuff so i thought i’d practice by writing this short drabble featuring a character that I made plus a favorite of mine from a cartoon. i used their real names instead of nicknames…honestly i’m a little embarrassed to have written this. i hope any of you who read this aren’t too traumatized afterward.

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They stood facing each other in a dimly lit alley.

“I'm not ASKING. I'm TELLING you aren't going back.”

His firm words echoed around them and for several moments she was silent.

Then her face twisted into a sneer. “You're forbidding me to go back?” Her sneer melted into a smirk. “Sorry, but I don't follow your orders!” she chuckled and began to walk away. “See ya.” Her hand lifted in a casual wave.

What a fool to think he could forbid her, Kimiko, from returning to her master. All of this because they had shared a few illicit embraces. That idiot should consider himself thankful that she didn't –Her thoughts were interrupted when Victor grabbed her by the arm and slammed her against the brick wall.

Her shocked eyes met his furious ones.

“Don't walk away from me! You may not like it but you're MINE.”

His mouth came down on hers hard before she could refute his statement. Angrily she shoved against his cold metal chest. Effortlessly, without removing his mouth, he grabbed her arms and pinned them against the wall firmly. Unable to use her arms Kimiko attempted to use her legs but Victor shifted so that his body was pressed against her, effectively holding her in place.

As his relentless assault continued she felt, to her shame, the anger she was feeling change to excitement. Her eyes slid shut and she surrendered herself to his searing kiss.

It wasn't until she moaned that Victor released her arms. Immediately they wound around him. After a few more minutes of intense kissing he pulled his mouth off of hers and opened his eyes. His voice was rough when he spoke, “Do you understand now?”

Her eyes opened, the green depths showing very clearly what she was feeling. In slow, tantalizing movement Kimiko moved her hips against his. “I don't think I do yet...why don't you help me to understand?” She pulled Victor's head down and sucked on his bottom lip.

It didn't take much convincing to get him started.

aida'iodfj!!!! i've been trying to work on a new fanfic but im suffering from a severe case of writers block -.- it sucks!!! i know what i want to write but i can't put it down into words :((( it's so frustrating!!!

surprisingly I haven't been having a drawing block. even though im not too good i've been popping out some pretty good drawings :3 yay me :D

also I started learning how to use imovie. i have imovie '08 and im trying to figure out how to put things into slow motion. bleh. lol

i don't think anyone ever believed you could do recreational things with computers. i mean the first one was created to solve math problems. and look at how far we have come, i can use the calc on the comp while at the same time listen to my music playlist and do a video chat with someone.

honestly i don't know what i'd like them to be able to do. they can already do what i need.

it's 2:34 am

my eyes are beginning to unfocus and cross. but i cant get to sleep. i am a dreamer not an action person and that makes me very sad. can someone be drunk without drinking? i feel that way now.

i've been watching teen titans and have been toying with the idea of an OC. female of course with long hair. i cant decide if it should be dark or light. she'll have pale skin. but until i actually flesh out her story thats all i can tell you

my hands are starting to twitch. i guess i really am sleepy.

i wish i were in school

i wish

i wish

i wish

for sleep

These are the wallpapers and icons/avatars that i have made. feel free to use them Wallpapers

BAAAAAAAAAAA

I'M SO FRUSTRATED

Zutara week is this week and I'm signed up as a writer

I already wrote over half of the first entry for tomorrow but as luck would have it it's sucky! i hate it! and i cant seem to find any inspiration for the rest of the entries ((although i got the outlines for most of them))

bleh

bleh

BLEH!!!!

WHY GOD WHY

WHAT DO I DO?

CHOCOLATE CAKE

nice and moist with the perfect frosting....mm i'm getting hungry just thinking about it!!!

I'm participating in the 2009 Zutara Week...yay!!!!

THEMES:
Day 1 (Aug. 10): CROSSOVER
Day 2 (Aug. 11): BLOOD
Day 3 (Aug. 12): JEALOUSY
Day 4 (Aug. 13): CACTUS JUICE
Day 5 (Aug. 14): FIREFLIES
Day 6 (Aug. 15): RHYTHM
Day 7 (Aug. 16): LICK

i still got a little time but i think i'm going to start working on these here in the journal :)

i'm kinda excited!!

this last week i was incredibly busy!!!!

i went out EVERY single day

i was so ready to drop dead on friday

i chose to read a book instead

make that 2 books

wedding yesterday :D

my uncle and his lovely bride Sarah

a little strange

she's a few years older than me

makes me think of when i will get married

apparently i will only have a 40% decision in the groom

60% goes to mom and Grandma

Grandma goes to Japan on Tuesday

I'm Jealous D:

Speaking of which

Jealously is day 3 in Zutara Week 2009

I have to start working on those entries >_

Last night I dreamed about my old friend and it caused such an ache in my heart I had to write that letter in my previous entry.

Its times like this that I wonder if I am the only one missing what we once shared or If I am the only one who was affected so deeply by the events that tore us apart.

I guess that's one of the reasons that I haven't tried so hard to reach out and find her again. It's been such a long time that I'm sure that this love is one sided. It must be....after all, I haven't been reached out to right?

It doesn't matter, I love Samantha with all my heart and I don't think that will ever change.

The sun shown brightly down on the two warriors. They stood facing each other, fear absent from their stances. For a moment tension crackled between them before the one with lavender hair shot forward and punched his dark haired friend sending him flying.

Kiwi Briefs watched all of this and frowned. Turning to her best friend, Son Galina, she complained, "Man I know they're supposed to be training and all but did Trunks have to punch Gohan so hard in the face?"

Galina tried not to smile at the outraged expression on her friends face but couldn't stop the laughter from bubbling up. "Yes he did."

A pout covered Kiwi's delicate features as she fixed her eyes on the fallen Gohan and the gloating Trunks. "You're terrible Galina."

"I'm hardly terrible, it's just amusing to see my almighty brother get his butt kicked!!"

Oblivious to the conversation going on between the girls, Trunks flew over to where his friend lay with a slightly dazed look on his face. Trunks smiled and said smugly, "Looks like the trainee is about to become the trainer." Half a second later Trunks found his feet getting kicked out beneath him and his butt meeting the ground.

Trunks glared at the now standing Gohan. "That had to have been a foul!!"

Gohan looked down at him and his dark eyes sparkled. "You've still got a lot to learn before that happens....and that was completely fair."

A pleased smile settled on Kiwi's face as she watched her brother fall to the ground. Turning to her friend she said, "I guess I know what you mean now Ga...Galina?"

Galina's face was puckered in a scowl and obviously she had not heard a word that Kiwi had said. She stood, hands curled into fists and flew over to where the boys were.

Gohan reached out a hand to Trunks, "That's enough training for tod...!!" For the second time in less than an hour Gohan was sent flying. Galina hovered angrily where he once stood her leg still poised in a kicking position. Gohan sat up and wiped some dirt off of his face. "What the hell was that for Galina?!"

Galina raised her chin and planted her fists on her hips. "That was for hurting Trunks you over sized jerk!!!" She turned her back to him and grabbed Trunks' hand.

The lavender haired man chuckled and stood with the help of his girlfriend. "Even the greatest of men fall. Thanks Galina."

Galina smiled prettily at him. "You're welcome Tru--ACK!!!!" The girl fell over as Kiwi tackled her.

"GALINA YOU YOU SNAKE! HOW DARE YOU HURT GOHAN!!" Kiwi Briefs may have been human but when the situation presented itself she was a formidable opponent. The girl's eyes blazed as she latched onto Galina's long dark hair.

Trunks and Gohan stared at the girls stunned for a moment until Galina's voice broke through. "OW OW OW SOMEONE GET HER OFF OF ME!!!!"

Gohan stood and with a smirk said, "Not on your life! GET HER KIWI!!!"

Trunks heard this and was thoroughly outraged. "Gohan don't egg her on!" A moment later the two men were also on the floor grappling.

The two battles merged into one and lasted for nearly 20 minutes.

Exhausted the four of them collapsed against each other laughing. Gohan twisted so that he could rest with Kiwi against him. Fingering the edges of her dark hair he chuckled, "That was fun."

Galina closed her eyes and wiggled into a more comfortable position against her boyfriend. "Who needs those boring training sessions when you can wrestle?"

Trunks yawned in agreement and draped his right arm around Galina's waist using his left as a pillow.

Kiwi smiled sleepily and reached out to Galina and the two girls clasped their hands together.

Aided by the sun and the relatively peaceful atmosphere the four friends fell asleep, oblivious to the troubles that would undoubtedly come into their future...

--Written by Kiyamasho and Puja723

Recently I changed my Adium sound set to one from the game Portal. I have never played the game before but I've seen clips and it seems amusing.

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The game that I've been playing recently is FFXII. It's a good game and I'm glad I picked it up. Atm my main Party Leaders are Basch, Penelo, and Balthier. Balthier is so sexy. Must be the gun.

my favorite weapons in the game are the Betelgeuse ((a gun)) and the War Hammer. At first i scorned both these weapons but when I saw the amount of damage they delivered when properly equipped i was won over. I can't wait to get higher level weapons

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I need to loose weight and get toned. I want to look good in a bathing suit and other things that are close fitted. So far I've been lucky and the weight is just in my tummy. therefore if i wear loose things i don't look fat :D so thats good. but back to my original point. I'm thinking about trying the Flirty Girl Fitness program. It looks like it would be a really fun way to loose weight and if i should ever find a man I can impress him with my new flirty girl fitness moves XD

hahaha my first journal entry title was called "boredom is a disease"

Friends are a Funny thing.

Atm I'm talking to my two best friends. One is in NJ and I love her to death. we have been through thick and thin and hopefully i will be able to see her in august. i've known her for 5 years and it's been great.

my second best friend was my roommate from UAA. i met her last semester and the two of us just bonded quickly. i'm sad i wont be able to go back to uaa this year. we meshed easily together. she's in mass.

i miss them both

and wish i could see them :

Lately I've been thinking about buying a Moleskine notebook. Supposedly all the great people in this world have had one so why shouldn't I? The only downside to this is that i tend to abandon journals. but if I have a journal meant for great people it should be fine right? hmmmm we shall see >.>

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livejournal has become to me a place where i go when im bored. which is a lot of the time >_>

le sigh

maybe i should just get a life. that would make things simpler!!

as you all saw in my last journal entry i am not going back to the university...therefore its time for a journal title change! whoo hoo! change is good ((supposedly)) :D

so

i got a job

finally :D

and i shall be working as an international nanny

say what?

thats right

an international nanny.

hmm that would make a good journal title

"The Life and Times of an International Nanny."

I like it.


as a side note my brother has a ball python. ever since the news of that little girl getting killed by the Burmese python every family member between here and europe has been calling him with concerns. LOL

So...this summer has to be the most difficult one of my life so far. An exaggeration? I think not.

1. I failed school
2. Parents are no longer going to pay for my education
3. I have to get a job
4. My "friends" no longer invite me to go places
5. I can't get a job
6. I can't get a job so I can't pay for school this upcoming semester
7. I don't have a job
8. I can't buy anything
9. I have no life
10. I'll leave this blank for now

what does all this add up to? I am now officially on my way to becoming a bum. How exciting is that? One day when I have children and we live under a bridge I'll be able to tell them that reason for my downfall was because I was an idiot and failed some classes in school. Won't they be proud of me. And that's if I even have children. who wants to have children with a bum? I certainly don't :